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19 March 2004 @ 11:46 am
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i know its not right, but like since my weight gain is a tad excessive, it makes me want to not gain any more weight or lose weight. I KNOW thats not right its not the answer, but thats how i am. I tend to be extreme about things. Maybe thats why i was anorexic before. fuckers. i talked to my dad and he was like take some pics. i wanna see how fat your getting. does he not remember i had to go to rehab for coke because i wanted to lose as much weight as possible at one point in my life? helllllooooo?? wtf. so in my head i heard my friends voice say "water off a ducks back" and just let it go. whatever. I'm going to be skinny after the baby. let me be fat now get it all over with. then afterwards i'll be skinny and happy and whatever. i just want them to shut up. i suppose letting them know my history might help, but i dont' see it as being their business and whatever. fuck it. this will be over soon anyway.

i'm done discussing this.

x-posted. so there.
 
 
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Mistress Dravenmistress_draven on March 19th, 2004 11:56 am (UTC)
my mom sounds just like your dad
you know what she said as soon as we told her we were expecting? oh too bad you got pregnant now that youve started to loose weight - youre just going to get fat again
wtf
ive had eating disorders as well
everytime i see her shes telling me not to each so much & that i should loose more weight (or im gaining too much)
like pregnancy isnt enough itself let alone having to hear shit like that from our parents

~Mistress Draven